AM STILL SMILING...

Its a Monday again and I always hate Mondays especially the fact that today I had to wake up at 6. I hate hate hate Mondays. Then I ended up missing my fave class for photography a developing something that turned black :(. I still love photography all in all.

Yesterday outside a club near Odeon was a young boy dancing. That boy had moves that would challenge a professional dancer. All the people in the club were cheering him on and when the music stopped ni vile we in Kenya otherwise he would have received a standing ovation. The people in the club began dropping cash down to the boy. He was very grateful that when a person gave him a shilling he thanked him like he hads been given a thousand but the look in that boys eyes when he danced were those of determination and joy. He is my inspiration for the week!!!!

19th September 2011

Today is the day the Lord has made we will rejoice and be glad for it. Thus my day starts not that nicely but well all the same. The call from dear sweet mum that just made my day. Ati she has missed me awww. hehe then almost being late for that class the 1 that the lecturer likes me because am a left handed just like him and it just rocks to be a lefthanded.He teaches history he is funny and he believes he was alive in 1920.

 The bad thing was after lunch I was walking happily to class thinking of a photo story for class. Then halfway to class my shoe string snapped and the shoe almost broke into two. I could not even drag my foot in the shoe I had to walk barefoot back to the room meeting a hundred people going the opposite direction looking at me with pitiful eyes. Then as if things could not get any worse I was pricked by a thorn aaargh but I went to the room changed shoes went to class made a presentation and am still smiling.

WHAT IS IT ALL ABOUT.

Life is life. It cannot be described and it cannot be the same as anyone's life. It is unique and it belongs to you. That is life.
This semester as beatiful and challenging it is has taught me to question life through socrates words. Its through questions we learn that we do not know anything. Hehe if I do not try and quote socrates how will you know am doing philosophy?
Then in studio looking at the faces of my classmates and wondering if we are all there for love of mass communication or is it because of our fasination with television, magazines, radio and celebrities.
Why do we do what we do???
That day we mass communication second years were in the studio looking at how the radio world is and it was such a nice feeling to be in that studio and to be starting something we will spend all our lives doing. The biggest question is what our motivation is. Is it more glamorous being on the outside loooking in or being on the inside making it happen.
It is common knowledge that we are almost never satisfied with what we get will that be reflected in this????

NEW SEM RESOLUTIONS

1. Write something here everyday.
2. Now that dark hand is gone not cry about it.
3. Succesfully get 3. with 18hrs (I should start praying)
4. Add another blog
5. Read Bible everyday
6. Visit an orphanage fortnightly
7. fACE ALL THE CHALLENGES WITH A SMILE

BACK TO SCHOOL!!!!!

Its a new sem with new courses new things new fears and many many more challenges. Am finally a 2nd year wooohooo hehe. N ths was my first day in school.
Life is a bitch (pardon my saying so) but here I am on a "beautiful" day (I just have to be optimistic coz am alive, healthy and God loves me that qualifies for a good day. But criously I was having an awful day because evrything was going wrong 1st being left by the bus literally seeing the bus leave me. Then missing my class then being warned by almost 3 people to drop photography coz inakazi nyingi and if am thinking of doing the most hours I can I should get rid of it.
Then with a dismayed heart I went to thew phototgraphy class to decide. Am second in class there is ths korean 3rd year hapo and he says hi with all the pysche then next person enters a 3rd year pia and he sits down we start talking then 5th person a 3rd year pia and he also admits that he is thinking of dropping it. Finally another lady arrives and so far am liking my course mates. An hour later am loving the lecturer and the course even more. My question is is passion enough??? I love photos and everything about it or should I just give up and follow my friends advice???

LITTLE BROTHERS

I have two young nephews who make me wish I had young siblings at times the rest of the times they just drive me crazy with thier incessant questions and tricks. I love those two rascals collo n vin. Collo falls asleep whiel watching telly and you can not wake him up without him making a big show. Ataamka then akimbie nje u have 2 run after him then aanze kulia then finally aseme anataka chakula by the time afike that point its an hour since you first woke him up. I love them and I love their questions they make me smile on a quiet evening after a long hard day....
Umefika??? They ask when I enter the house then they look at each other and ask umetuletea nini?? This always makes me smile. Vini (the older 1) makes sure its Collo who asks me that. Their dreams are to be a doctor and the other an engineer dont u just miss those days when our dreams were that. When life was about hating school especially a certain maths teacher then about longing to reach home at about 1 in order to play aah how I miss those days and Vinni and Collo make me miss them more.

Its a beatiful day and am feeling like life doesnt make sense at all. This week has been a learning lesson for me. When mum was found to have ovarian tumour we took it in our stride with her being optimistic Susan hopeful me thoughtful. It happened and her daughters were right by her side holding her hand and being supportive then arguing about something not important at all!!!!!
 But anyway life qent on and she got out of hosi and thats when life for me became really scaery. They all left me alone to take care of my dear um. AAAAARGH!!!!  How sure were they that I was worth that position. I love my mum 2 much to put her in my  hands guess that says a lot about me.... And then again it also says a lot about my faith.
1 day she vomited after her meal and I was sure labda it was just the food then at night she vomited again and thats when I freaked out and I started doubting there decision of putting me as mum's nurse. But the thing that scared me the most was her not praying and reading the bible.My mum hu used to wake up at 4 to pray and soma bibilia and hu never let us sleep without praying was not praying as much that was according to me the worst and that why am smilling today coz ameamka at 5 kuomba na ametukeep hadi 10 pm reading the bible. HUUUUUUURRRRRRRAAAAAHHHH!!!!!
 Now its time for us to see the doctor for 1 more checkup and get to know whetre its chemo 4 her or not a trip the two of us have been postponing 4 a long time!!!! God help us.......